Sky

Staring into the fading sky
And just staring at the birds as they fly.
I wonder if she is looking at this sky too. 
My thoughts are few,
When she is not on my mind. 
It's like someone can control time
And change my dreams,
And make them more than they are supposed to seem. 
They have become my reality.
They even have it's original creativity. 
They make me wonder
Until my thoughts become louder than thunder,
And they pound in my head.
Even when I lay down in bed,
She still manages to overcome my mind. 
How does she have the time?
I wonder how she does it. 
How she even controls it a little bit. 
In the end it leaves me wondering 
And my thoughts still thundering. 
Are you looking at the sky? 
I know you are, that's why  so am I. 

Thank you

Believe it or not
These words are all that I've got.
I'm just trying to say
That I have been waiting for the day
To explain to you all
The feelings I have just bundled into a ball.
You are my everything.
You are the part that makes me a human being
Without you I would be just
A emotionless guy, looking for lust.
Thank you for creating me,
And helping me strive to be all I can be.
You mean more to me than you know,
Even if you decide to go,
You will forever be known
As the one who changed the man of stone.

Misery

Misery comes easy without you
Even if I opened with something other than these words
There are just a few
ways to say this without my soul being heard.
You were the wings
That made me sore high above
I felt richer than the richest king
All of this just because of your love. 
Where has this brought me
But sitting here
Remembering that we were we
And wearing my misery clear
As day on my face
Not wiping the tears on my cheek
Because they come with such haste
 my eyes are like a faucet with a leak.
I could write you the corniest rhymes
Or even the sweetest lines
But regardless you are no longer mine
It's time to say goodbye. 

Time

In the shadows of my mind,
There is just no shelter I can find.
I just want to know where my shelter lies,
Searching and finding hopefully before I die.
The reminisce of my past,
Is coming at me way to fast.
The thing is the shadows of you
Are deep even though there are so few.
I just want to forget
That girl who I just can't get
Off my mind.
Just someone give me time
To make these painful thoughts
Are all but brought
To the land of nothing.
Just give me something
I can do to
Take my mind off of you.

Till Death Do Us Part

When the sun becomes cold
and on the day when we grow old.
Know that i'll be there for you.
If you take some of the few
solemn words i have said,
make these words into a bed
that you can rest your heart and soul on.
'Cause soon I will be gone
you know the lengths I would go to
just to hear you say i love you.
You have my heart and soul,
I don't care what kind of toll
it will take on me.
Bottom line is I would rather be
dead in the dirt,
all mangled and hurt.
Then to live a day
with your love momentarilly at bay.
Till death do us part,
and even when clouds surround us
i will never betray your trust

Mistakes

Even in this world I thought I could show
you, I wish you could know
what goes on in the dark side of the moon.
You will find out soon
enough. Don't you worry your
pretty little face anymore.
I know in my life I have made
mistakes, that won't soon fade.
Yet we both know that no
matter what things I do will not allow me to grow
as person. Even if I cured cancer and
took the world too a far off land,
and saved the world from hunger,
it will no longer,
nor has it ever been enough
to redeem me for my sins, no matter how tuff
I may be,
only you can see
that no matter what, even in my
greatest moment, ones that defies
the texts books, and rule books,
no one will even give me a second look.
For the soul fact that my heart aches
to be forgiven for my greatest mistake.

Keys

It is funny how mysterious keys are,
They make you wonder of some place far
away. You begin to wonder what
secrets, they hold or the one's that
they will protect. Its funny how a simple little
Object can seem to fiddle
Away at your brain,
And your mind goes on the fast lane,
Trying to imagine what secrets they might
Hold, I wonder what fright
They may have in the inner workings.
If they have any deep dark secrets lurking
In their core.
Or will they be a bore,
Oh the secrets they may hold,
May i be so bold
As to ask what secrets they hold,
And ask what is untold?

Monster

When I tell you my past,
some day, at last.
You will see the animal I am
You will see the evil that can
pulse through my blood and
veins. Maybe it will show you that far off land
where the person I really am comes out
and wanders about.
One day you will say,
"You act as if you are a monster" As you lay
down and ponder what I have just spoken,
it is as if a hurricane as woken.
You will see the me for me
and who I am, not who I am supposed to be.
My mind is eternal night,
not a spark nor a light in sight.
It's a eternal dark alley filled
with thoughts that have just suddenly spilled
on to my lips,
and so wonder this.
Am I the man you see
or am I just somebody that could be.

One Day

If I were the last thing
in the world, with no human being's,
just gave me a paper and pen
and I will show you, something not now nor then.
I will write till my hands bleed.
I will show you the need
for what I do,
I will show you how too
see what level I am on.
I know you would never be any where
near what I am on but what do I care.
I am just a person who can rhyme
and who's got all the time.
So sit back and listen,
look at my eye balls glisten,
look at the seriousness in my voice.
You don't have a choice.
My words will change nations,
even gods best creations,
will have no will power over me,
this is how it will be.

Undone

Its getting harder and
and harder to walk around and see the man
I have become.
All I have done cannot be undone.
It's hard walking around a house of
glass, and feeling any love
towards myself.
Because even in all my wealth
I realize I hate who I am.
Even though I have done all I can.
Every time I walk past a mirror
I just know I fear
what I can do.
Do you even have the slightest clue,
how hard is for me to look at my own
eyes in the mirror, and see the tone
of remorse and regret.
It would be a safe bet
to say that I need
to change, and no longer feed
the mouth of my emotions
and I won't hear the commotion.

Nothing But

Sometimes I feel like my insides
are inside and out. I need something besides
this pain. I wish I could just
shut these emotions off. It is a must,
I do not understand but when I try
it takes all I can not to cry.
I don't share my thoughts
because I know I will get caught
in a string of emotions that will
literally begin to kill
me because they have never spoken.
And to be randomly awoken,
would tear at my
stomach, maybe than you will see why
I do not share what I feel
because as much as I would like these wounds to heal
I know that the scars they leave
will never fade. So do not be deceived.
Just because they begin to fade away
I know that one day I will pay
by the hauntings of things I never
said, or things I never spoke of ever.
Thinking I was the tough guy
that has no emotions, well that was a lie.
I always thought I could just turn
them off, but now I have soon learned
that the pain I feel,
is nothing but real.

Death Before Defeat

It's funny how hard it is
to walk across a bridge you've burned. 'Tis
one of the hardest things do
because there is nothing harder you
can do then trying to walk
on something that is not there. So lets talk.
I just want to sit and apologize for
what I have done. I believe it straight down to my core
that what I have done can
not be undone. But please be the bigger man
and understand me. I am not asking for forgiveness
but I am asking for this.
Please understand that I am walking down the darkest street,
just understand I will accept, death before defeat.

Not Again

The thing is when I sit with this pen in my hand,
I drift off to a far off land.
It is like I am sitting on this grass,
waiting for time to pass.
When a friend of mine got up and left,
I felt like it was the ultimate theft.
Now another kid, who I did not know,
decided it was time to go.
Its never right to say goodbye,
so early, without telling us all why.
Goodbyes are never easy,
let alone the eternal ones, those just make me queasy.
The thing is you don't realize
that when you cut the ties
to you and your life,
the inner strife
we will all have in our head,
until we are, as well, dead.

RIP

Endless Scare

The words I say
are not necessarily the words I feel
I know I have to pay
my time, and allow these wounds to heal.
The words I have said
have soon fed
my emotions
for so long, I can no longer take the comottion.
You ask me to write these words for you,
I search deep inside of me.
I realize I have so few.
It makes me wonder why we are we.
I dont know why I feel this way,
but I know I am not okay.
So try and help me,
explain to me why this is ment to be.
I do not know why I have such doubts,
but I do feel them inside.
I try and figure out what they are about,
I need you to help me out.
Help me speak the words unspoken,
I need to be woken
out of this nightmare,
it is just no longer fair.

Rest In Peace

How in the hell could you waste
your life away with such haste?
Did you even stop and think,
what you would do to the world? Break the link
that hold you and your family together.
What you did was not clever,
but down right evil.
All the wounds you had would of healed.
I am sorry the world has wronged you,
but why take one of the few
of God's gifts left in this place.
I really wish you would of thought on how much space
you took in my heart,
before you tore it apart.
Why did you pick up that rope,
I could of helped you cope.
I am sorry but what you did,
heaven already has forbid
anyone to do it in there life.
So when I heard these words, they cut like a knife,
to my lungs, because you had it all,
only to waste it all on something so small.

Rest In Peace

Take these Uncertainty's

I hate the feeling of uncertinity,
I just want to know once and for all, do I have your eterenity?
I swore from the begining,
you would be my one and only. But something is hindering
the though of me and you.
I know I have so few
emotions but there is one.
And I know for as long as I am living it will never come undone
for you. Because you keep my heart beating
and you are the only one that keeps defeating
my defenses and gaurds.
You take all thats hard
and make it come so naturally.
So baby did you know that I actually
am in love with you?
I am just begging to hear you say it too.

Faith

As I begin to pull up my sleeve,
to show you that my scars are real,
just trying to get you to believe,
what I feel.
I know the words I say,
may come out in,
the opposite of normal, but on the contrary of my way,
but this is honestly from within.
I am lost in my own,
little world not anyone else's.
But I would of flown,
to the ends of the earth to show you I am the least bit of selfish.
I am tired of writing why I love you,
because God knows if I do.
If what we have is true,
we will make it through.

Destruction

So as I sit in this hole,
at a all time low.
I tell you I am five feet under,
what is another, just past me the shovel.
As you begin to wonder,
what's on the level,
I know that deep down inside,
I just need someone to show me the way.
I just hope that the world doesn't open wide,
and take me away.
I don't care which way I go,
or who I am with,
all I know
is that this
is not my place to be.
So someone release these shackles on my arms,
this isn't me,
I mean no one no harm.
It only sometimes comes out that way,
As you may I know,
I am a core of destruction, I am just in total and utter dismay.

Take These Broken Wings

If I could write you these
words in a way that will show you, you have the keys,
to my body and soul.
And inform you that you make me whole.
To let you know that my love is eternal.
I once told God to never let anyone meddle
with my feelings,
because I know I cannot take another human being,
be able to control who I may be,
because quite frankly I am me.
But then one day he gave me you,
he does not have the slightest clue,
how you are the best gift,
known to this man. That you are able to lift,
my broken heart
and mend it part by part.

Till The Day I Die

When the memories of us begin to fade away
I just hope I can keep my feelings at bay.
Because on the day
I told you I will love you all the way
until my heart stops beating,
until it stops heating
my body with is warmth.
From this day forth
you are mine
forever and always, till the end of time.
Till oceans run dry
Till new born children never cry.
Till sand becomes gold.
Till the sun becomes cold.
You are a gift from above
and you fill my heart with love.

The Lone Ranger

The Lone Ranger sits upon his throne,
wondering about his heart, or some say his gallows.
He just wonders where is his home?
He doesn't look , rather he sits and wallows,
in his own sorrows.
Not embracing today,
but worrying about tomorrows
problems that may never be done,
or ever happen.
There is just one
thing on his mind that just keeps tapping
on the core
of his mind.
It's like his heart is on the floor.
But the thing is he doesn't have time
to pick it up.
So life has given him a fine,
on taking his pain just for a day of feeling up.
And all he has to do was sign on the dotted line,
to free himself from this pain,
all he had to do was sell his soul
and it will release him from his pain.
All he had to do was let the ferryman take his toll.